“Happiness can be found, even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light”

I never knew what losing a loved one was like until it happened to me. The passing of my Grandfather did something to me. It changed me dramatically. When it happened it put me in my darkest hour. I was so despondent, isolating myself from the world. Any little thing would trigger me to become very maudlin. I would cry myself to sleep, wake up in the middle of night crying, and wake up crying as well. I wanted nothing to do with anyone during that time. I frittered away so much time from my friends and family. As much as they tried to corroborate me during those hard times I couldn't take it. Nothing made sense to me anymore. Someone who has been with me since the day I was born and watched me grow up to be the young lady that I am today to just be taken away from me in an instant is what hurts the most. In retrospect, I knew the day was gonna come when I would no longer have him in my life. I just never knew it would happen so soon. When I realized that I could no longer be sad about this was when I became resilient. I pushed through the depression and brought in pure positivity into my life. I helped my mom cope with it as well, as he was her father. That's where I seen that I could no longer be the way I was because it also affected her. Now I live my life in memory of my grandfather. Spreading the love that he gave me to those that cross my path. Forgiving those who have done me wrong, as it brings peace to my life. There's no need for negativity in my life anymore. Everything I do, I do for my grandpa. I do believe that there is life after death and I know that my grandpa is so proud of me.